Saturday, November 8, 2008

Keeping Perspective

I know last week I promised a post every day about something I'm thankful for, however i'm finding it hard to be thankful that i have another parent-teacher conference for my oldest on Monday. It appears that he's not putting his homework in the basket in every morning, even though he has it AND he felt the need to tell everyone in his class today that Elvis died on the toilet (don't ask, i have no idea) AND she won't release his report card until i meet with her. So, cut me some slack as I have a feeling this is a glimpse of my life for the next 14 years. IF he can get through college in one go without academic probation (he IS his father's child).

I'M THANKFUL THAT I HAVE NOT 1 BUT 2 HEALTHY CHILDREN WHO I LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING.

I am beyond stressed that I have to justify my job by re-interviewing for a position that i've held for 2 years due to this hostile takeover, er..i mean merger. A position, mind you, that i was not originally hired for, but morphed into because they didn't take all aspects of our department into consideration during creation. I am more than aggravated and concerned that my fate somewhat rests in someone else's hands who i don't think really gets the workload of any of these positions considering our budget constraints and restrictions on hiring. Mind you, this person of whom I speak, is NOT my boss. I'm VERY upset that my boss is beginning to stress out and she is the cornerstone of this department - she's amazing and i'm afraid i won't get to work for her anymore or continue to learn everything she has to teach me. THIS SUCKS AND I'M SCARED.

I'M THANKFUL THAT I STILL, AS OF TODAY, HAVE A JOB THAT PAYS ME A GREAT SALARY AND LETS ME WORK FROM HOME.


I'M GRATEFUL TO BE SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN ABLE TO KEEP HER JOB THUS FAR IN THIS ECONOMY AND I'M GRATEFUL THAT I EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO INTERVIEW. I'M CHOOSING TO VIEW THIS AS THE POSSIBILITY OF NEW BEGINNINGS.

This damn zoo I call my house. Mini, the girl kitten, had diarahhea and proceeded to walk through it with all 4 paws, and THEN RUN LIKE THE WIND THROUGH THE GREAT ROOM. Across the ivory carpet. That's about when my old, blind, deaf, NARCOLEPTIC pug decided to hurl up his breakfast all over the kitchen tile - and then of course, in an act of pure culinary delight - EAT HIS VOMIT. He then got so worked up that i was keeping him from his wonderful second breakfast - his narcolepsy kicked in, which caused him to fall over into the puke, dead asleep and piss all over himself. So, let's recap, kitty poo, doggy vomit, cat AND dog bath, and floor mopping all before 8 am!


GOD, THANK YOU FOR MY HOME. A HOME THAT I LOVE AND CAN STILL AFFORD THE PAYMENTS ON. A PEACEFUL HOUSE THAT GAVE ME WONDERFUL SOLACE DURING SOME VERY EMOTIONAL MONTHS DURING MY DIVORCE. I HAVE A ROOF OVER MY HEAD, FOOD IN MY PANTRY AND THE LIGHTS ARE STILL ON. THANK YOU FOR THESE PETS THAT MY CHILDREN ADORE AND CARRY FROM ROOM TO ROOM, THEY HAVE BEEN A WONDERFUL BLESSING TO MY KIDS AND OUR FAMILY WOULD NOT BE COMPLETE WITHOUT THEM.

Going for mom of the year and in the process getting death glares from the woman at the polling place on election day. Look lady, this is THE most important, historic moment so far in my childrens lives and UNBELIEVABLE for us as country to experience. SO IF I WANT MY CHILDREN TO BE ABLE TO SAY THAT THEY WERE THERE, THEY WERE A PART OF IT - SO BE IT. You need to relax, or reconsider volunteering to man the polls next go around. Thank you to all the OTHER poll workers who agreed that the children to be able to SEE how mommy votes, and how important this is for ALL OF US. They GOT it.


I'm grateful that I live HERE. That we get to vote at all and have a say in how our country's run. AND I'M SO FREAKIN' PROUD OF US TO HAVE COME SO FAR. Good for us. I heart my new president. God, it's great to be able to say that for a change. Oh, and California and Florida and any other of you states that decided it was ok for some people to be married and others not - well shame on you.

There is always going to be crap that pushes our patience and tests our limits. But at the end of the day, you can always be sure that someone else has it worse. period. Bitching about your job - at least you have one. Kids making you batty? Someone's struggling with infertility or even worse, lost a child and is experiencing heartbreak un-imaginable. Car back in the shop and it's $500 to get fixed - you HAVE A CAR. Paint is peeling on the house trim, the faucet is leaking again or you just got a glimpe of what your heating bill is going to be this winter - THOSE ARE BLESSINGS PEOPLE. This post is more for my own benefit than anyone else's as I've been quite the mess of 'WHY ME?'s lately - but it's JUST LIFE. Not the train wreck i'm making it out to be. But ask me again in a week :)






1 comment:

Rose said...

Oh, but you make me laugh ... and think! What a funny and thoughtful post. A narcoleptic, vomit-eating dog - you can't make that kind of stuff up. [grin] Wishing you all the best on the job sitch; I've been through several mergers/takeovers in my career and they're never easy. Stay positive and cheery and in the moment. Worrying doesn't change anything. All the best to you, the kiddos and the assorted menagerie.